Tuesday, April 3, 2018

How Is Life Measured?


©2018 Chantelle Henderson

This right here....this is how I want to live my life-not measured in time and years, but rather moments and memories, places I traveled when I was a flight attendant and even after; how much I love Siesta beach with it’s powder sand; my deep and endless need....I mean desire for all things coffee; the fact that I love all genres of music, movies, and books.  I also have an obsession with documentaries, Dateline, and 20/20.  When I’m writing, it’s not just a hobby, but a passion that burns within me whether people ever read it or not.  Ask me why I want Brick House played at my home going reception (complete with a DJ).  I also want 70’s, 80’s, and 90’s hits, which must include Funky Cold Medina, Girls Just Wanna Have Fun and possibly Baby Got Back?  Never mind.  That may be pushing it.  No, you know what-go for it!  And speaking of pushing it, go ahead and throw in Push It by Salt and Peppa.  There should be lots and lots of dancing and laughter.  If there are stories and memories to be shared by family and friends I want a very large majority of them to be crazy, stupid, and hilarious.  Ask me how and why my Daddy was my hero.  Ask me why I call my mom Hazel sometimes, as well as the scary similarities between her and Tyler Perry’s Madea.  My two sons keep me from feeling old because they are young.  Feel free to ask why I strive to be a good wife to a man who’s beyond my soulmate and hangs the moon and stars.  Ask me how we almost ended in divorce court several times in the first three years of marriage.  I want people to feel that I try to be real and honest and transparent and what it was birthed from.  I want to share how I came to accept Jesus as my Savior and why I’ve called God Papa long before The Shack book or movie came out.
I strive to possess eternal treasures that have nothing to do with material possessions, status, or the applause or disapproval of man.  I’m here for an audience of One.  So yes.  Age is completely irrelevant when I think of my life.  
I’ve never cared about getting older because I’ve always felt that I was an old soul, yet young at heart.  At 47 I reflect on all the things in this meme and smile because this is  how I want to be known both on this side of eternity as well as going to my permanent home in Heaven, whether dead or living, to say that I live to know Him and make Him known.  Ask me how I have the loudest and most obnoxious laugh and why people tell me all the time that it’s contagious.  Actually, no.  Don’t ask because I honestly have no idea.  I want you to know that I’ve learned to dance like no one is watching in spite of life happening.  
But above all and anything else know that I try really, really hard to love the Lord my God with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my strength and with all my mind and that I love people without condition.  
I want to grow in compassion concerning the acceptance of the broken, the outcasts, the under dogs, the hurting, the wounded, and the broken-hearted.  Those who so desperately long to feel wanted, and loved, whole, and accepted.  I want to be Jesus with skin on.
Whether I live a short life or live to be a hundred doesn’t really matter.  What matters most is not my physical age, but how old I REALLY am based on the life I have lived and continue to live one day at a time.  The years will be as old or young by challenges I have faced, how I became an overcomer and a fierce warrior who longs to be a voice for the voiceless; the adventures I’ve been on-whether it was 5 Miles from my home or across the world in another country.  No matter what, it must count for something that in a strange sense I feel extremely young because, Lord willing, I still have many journeys to go on, books to read, new music to discover, untold stories to write, have dances in the kitchen with my husband with no music, and have grandchildren some day.  I want to continue to grow in the knowledge and understanding of the word of God and to share what I have learned.  I still have friends’ birthday parties and weddings to attend; graduations and Girl nights out.  
Most of all I still have to get caught up on 18 episodes of This Is Us and 7 episodes of Blue Bloods.
God bless err’body!  ♥️ C


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